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It's almost been one whole year since I've posted a journal entry. Only 54 minutes short, as of when I am typing this sentence. And wow. What a year has passed. So much has happened. To everyone. Not just the people I know. But also the people I don't know.
The natural disasters, and the wars, for example. That's a more recent example.
I'm wondering if I should have a dedicated blog instead of this dA journal, and make it private. Sometimes I just need...a place to rant on. I'd write in a proper diary as someone once suggested. But. I don't know. I don't want my parents ruffling through it innocently.
I don't like my parents sometimes. Actually, no. Just my dad. I just don't get him. I don't know.
There's...so much I feel I could type about. And if I typed about everything that happened in the past year, and everything I've thought about, everything I'm thinking about right now, and other things as well...I might as well type till well past 3U Maths exam starts. But there's really one thing I want to talk about. And that's myself.
I don't actually do that a lot, I realised. So I thought. Maybe I should...just go on and on.
The hardest person to know is often yourself.
Granted, I've changed a bit over the past year. Is it for the better, or the worse? I honestly don't know which outweighs what.
I also wanted to be closer to Him. But sometimes...I wish my parents could also understand. And let me. I think it's partially because of them, that I don't often get to talk to Him a lot.
And if He is truly out there...I wish He could give me a sign. No...pray. "Wishing" is useless with Him. I pray that He would give me a sign. There are simply...so many things I want to ask Him. And if the Father Lord knows all, then...I don't want him to tell me outright. But I at least want to know that He is there for me.
I'm sorry. I just feel like hopeless shit right now.
I guess my priorities have changed too. But sometimes...I don't know. I get torn by what I want and what I should do.
Don't expect me to post here again. If I do, then I will. If I don't, then good luck finding my blog.
And finally...鍾慧靈, if you're still out there, I want you to know that I still won't let go, no matter what. I'm sorry about how I was tonight. But, as I told you, I really do have a lot on mind at the moment. Please forgive me. Maybe we should talk after Wednesday, when our heads are hopefully clearer. I'm still slightly annoyed at "that thing we were talking about", but it wouldn't have hurt as much if it wasn't for what happened today. Every time I get a text...I keep wishing it was from you. But it never is. My heart still aches.
I love you. 羅子欣.
...I feel like shit again.
The natural disasters, and the wars, for example. That's a more recent example.
I'm wondering if I should have a dedicated blog instead of this dA journal, and make it private. Sometimes I just need...a place to rant on. I'd write in a proper diary as someone once suggested. But. I don't know. I don't want my parents ruffling through it innocently.
I don't like my parents sometimes. Actually, no. Just my dad. I just don't get him. I don't know.
There's...so much I feel I could type about. And if I typed about everything that happened in the past year, and everything I've thought about, everything I'm thinking about right now, and other things as well...I might as well type till well past 3U Maths exam starts. But there's really one thing I want to talk about. And that's myself.
I don't actually do that a lot, I realised. So I thought. Maybe I should...just go on and on.
The hardest person to know is often yourself.
Granted, I've changed a bit over the past year. Is it for the better, or the worse? I honestly don't know which outweighs what.
I also wanted to be closer to Him. But sometimes...I wish my parents could also understand. And let me. I think it's partially because of them, that I don't often get to talk to Him a lot.
And if He is truly out there...I wish He could give me a sign. No...pray. "Wishing" is useless with Him. I pray that He would give me a sign. There are simply...so many things I want to ask Him. And if the Father Lord knows all, then...I don't want him to tell me outright. But I at least want to know that He is there for me.
I'm sorry. I just feel like hopeless shit right now.
I guess my priorities have changed too. But sometimes...I don't know. I get torn by what I want and what I should do.
Don't expect me to post here again. If I do, then I will. If I don't, then good luck finding my blog.
And finally...鍾慧靈, if you're still out there, I want you to know that I still won't let go, no matter what. I'm sorry about how I was tonight. But, as I told you, I really do have a lot on mind at the moment. Please forgive me. Maybe we should talk after Wednesday, when our heads are hopefully clearer. I'm still slightly annoyed at "that thing we were talking about", but it wouldn't have hurt as much if it wasn't for what happened today. Every time I get a text...I keep wishing it was from you. But it never is. My heart still aches.
I love you. 羅子欣.
...I feel like shit again.
Emptiness
You're enjoying your life. You feel blessed to be surrounded by all these people. Those who support you, those who you love.
I just wish you knew how I felt, sometimes. It just hurts. But I never know exactly why.
(Not so) Random Rant for Today (#24)
There's actually like, 101 things I could actually talk about in the journal entry. But there's so much to do, and so little time. So iunno. A shame, really. It would be nice to be able to come back even once every fortnight for a post.
Anyhow. Surprisingly, today's post will actually be about something productive. Or serious. Whatever.
Adobe Photoshop CS5. Would that ring any bells?
Yeah, apparently it's coming out in a few weeks time or something (correct me if I'm wrong), so yeah. I only got PS CS4 like, 5 months ago, and CS5 is out. >_>
But yeah. In case you didn't know, you might not have heard of a new "Content-Aware Fill" option th
Random Rants for Today (#23)
Did I mention that it's not awesome to be capped during the school term faster than you get capped during the summer holidays? =="
Hi guys! So, Year 11 has started, and yeah. I can't believe it's only about 3 weeks since my last update. Feels like a month. But yeah. So how's everything been?
I really can't be bothered typing up that descriptive of a journal entry, but just a quick update:
In general, I guess my teachers are fine. Except for my Phys and English teacher. And perhaps Maths teacher. Not nice. We got dumped with a lot of work, now that we're in Year 11. Oh well. These 4 weeks seemed slightly fast. It shouldn't be long before th
Random Rants for Today (#22)
So I'm typing this journal entry up in the middle of the night, because I get the feeling I won't get the chance to say anything as the term progresses. I hope I'll be wrong, but for legitimate reasons, and not procrastination. :L
So I've returned to school as a Year 11, and it certainly makes a change from the monotony of the holidays. Though in exchange for that, I'll be getting loads of work, and yeah.
Can't think of much to type about. Minds tend to get fuzzy at this time of night, no?
But yeah. On another note, lol. My artworks have been favourited by people about 420 times now (in total), and I'm nearing 5,500 pageviews. I don't know
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so, the person who you're wondering if is still out there and the person you are two different people? =O